Sometimes I realize that it is inevitable to have one of "those days" or even one of "those weeks". This last week I've felt...well weird. This semester has been pretty good. I've accomplished a lot and I got into a great routine. But, this last week, I've been off. I've felt massive amounts of stress with school, money, future decisions, etc.
Planning your future is impossible. If I could add up the amount of time I've spent trying to figure out my future, I would be shocked. I heard a quote once that I loved. It goes, "Humans make plans, and God laughs." It seems like the more I try to figure out my life, the more confused I become. I so badly want to have a career that makes me happy, but I also realize that I need a degree in something that has job prospects. I play this game of tug-a-war with myself constantly. I want to make the right decision. I wish that God would directly guide my life to where I need to be. It's so hard when He tells me that I need to make my own decisions and learn from them. I am all for making mistakes and growing from those, but it's so much pressure.
This last week I've been trying to figure out jobs, how I am going to pay for school, what schooling and career path I should follow, where I should live, etc. and I am so worn out and unmotivated from it all. It's hard to decipher what you want to do from what you should do. It's hard to decide which dreams are attainable and which dreams need to be abandoned as you grow up. And, when you make these decisions, you have to do it for yourself. Others will tell you what you should do, but you can't listen to them. You have to do what is going to be right for you.
